bertukar

i need to change for tomorrow..i can't be like this..i must strong enough to face the fact..i will change..
i will not be the old nurul azwa ahmad or old wawa old azwa..
i hope..i change..be a better person..

get a strong spirit ...hopefully

awak

• sumpah!saya perlukan anda..menangis di bahu anda..menceritakan segala-galanya..sedih upset kecewa yg xdpt dikawal..
• hati saya berkata kenapa kenapa kenapa kenapa kenapa dan kenapa..hari saya diwarnai nama awak.kiri kanan depan belakang hanya nama awak..awak adalah awak ..ibarat pelangi mewarnai langit apabila hujan panas..begitulah awak kepada saya..
• saya rasa tercabar cemburu geram..ibarat cukup rasa keluaran maggi..secukup rasa saya rasa..kerana awak ...semua nya awak..
• saya benci awak tp saya sayang awak..awak pelita hati di kala kegelapan..awak menceriakan suasana...
• tadi saya dengar lagi cite pasal awk..
• 'hey u taw x,die tu funny..most funny guy..best kwn dgn die..'
• smlm sy dgr lg cite psl awk..'die gojes la..saya suke die wawa'..o.m.g..
• i really hate this part..
• berkongsi?payah la..kerana saya xsanggup..sifat kecemburuan wanita terlampau tebal dalam diri saya..maaf andai saya yang mengundur diri..saya pasrah redha kerana mungkin selepas ini awak bukan gula hati saya lagi..
• btw awak thanks..even dulu saya hanya suka secara senyap2 hingga terreveal kt byk org tp gula hati saya ttp awak..mungkin awak akan jumpe yg lebih baik selepas ini..
• saya redha kalau itu yang terbaik..
• saya perlu berhenti menangis berteriak dan saya perlu matang..ye saya akan jadi matang..

p/s : jiwang yang keterlaluan..maaf readers..saya sangat down ketika menaip ini..pls i need to build up my spirit again..oh...!cry like hell

pemalu

• saya seorang pemalu sedikit asertif namun pasif..
• sebagai contoh saya sangat malu apabila menyanyi di khalayak ramai..ini dpt dilihat ketika pergi karok di ceria bersama miss hari tu..haha..truthly xpenah kot g situ...tp apabila diminta bernyanyi sangat pemalu...namun nynyi la sikit en..at least terbias jugak la sifat kemaluan..
• saya mungkin tidak akan berbicara dgn anda jika saya tidak mengenali anda..namun ketika anda sudah mengenali saya ,saya merupakan miss talkative..bak kata pepatah 'i'm shy pls be aggressive to know me..'
• kesimpulannya saya memang pemalu..sangat pemalu kot...
  

100

entri yang ke -100..

• bahagia
• bahagia
• bahagia
• bahagia

saya sangat bahagia dan bahagia bahagia...sangat....

hari ini awesome...thanks who make me feel awesome...

anniversary

happy 24th anniversary ayah & emak..

• sori angah xdpt balik celebrate..
• sangat busy minggu nie..
• anyway i love u both n my family!
• thanks 4 everythink!
  

p's : love kisses n hug to them

responsible

• yesterday i had meeting with daddy..actuallt not the official meeting just chit chat n the reason meet him just want to sent invitation card to him...
• but i really surprise with the news tht he bring to us..he will be transferred to kptm kl...o.m.g tht is super surprise to me ok!...ok then i ask him...why u had being transfer..he said ..the reason because there is one case happen at asrama nong chik..there were students who are act aggressively throw their bed,cupboard n burn it...this thing really make us surprise n shock ..because i was think what make them act like tht..protes or what?
• oh damn for me i think there are many ways to release their hate or dissatisfaction..dont act like a person like doesnt have brain...think people think..dont u think...what u did cause trouble to another ppl..
• now u hav cause trouble to our beloved daddy n us..
• we just made suggestion..why dont our college make siswa conference.?but i know the ppl who make criminal will not come n stand their fact...they will continue their behave n still like before..
  
• back to my daddy story...i know he is sad when he being transferred..the way he act i know.we all know...the fact is we really sad,,coz u r nice to us...
• but i will remember his advice tht we must responsible to what we r responsible to...dont make reason.just accept..
• btw,personally if he read my blog..i just wanna said che wan thanks for everythink..with your help sri ayu change a lot...eventhough we r not your truly daughter but we accept you as our daddy...
• for che wan hope you happy at new place n dont forget us...we will visit u at kptm kl..
  

p/s : i typing this with sad mood ...

morning

i'm just hope tday will shine more from the other day...same as for another day!

'eh ape ak merepek ni'...;p...


big hug n kisses to all my bff ..housemate..classmate ...as well as my only one hanis n salted day...


hope today will bright up and up and up!

picture of the month

picture of the month...

salted fish

this is my salted fish...time ni saya di atas die di bwh...like a pak guard taw time die berdiri..
bile saya tnjuk kt die pic ni..thousand smile di beri..ngee comel...time ni die menanti lecturer die dgn penuh waja dan jayanya..haha
die sgt comel baik...nakal juga...i like him tp saya dh ade hanis..jadi xbole tamak.oleh itu saya dan die adalah kawan..dont ever hurt him kerana dia adalah salted fish saya!

zero

hey u olls..lame x update blog e...haha..busy gile la minggu ni..ok as the title zero!

• semakin kite suke semakin susah kita nk dapat..but once we try to forget the best moment will appear aggressively..
• hell sgt benci perasaan macam tu..
• bila kita nk die die xnk..tp bile kite dh blaja tuk melepaskan die dtg..
• why eh?confius!
• well i keep always seen this happen plus it happen to me..whatever it is life must go on..
• so i do think to stick dont try to forget u coz it will hurt me more...let go eith the flow..how ar it can go....
• kdg2 kite kata dh zero tp hakikatnya?100 percent masih ade...
  

inspiration

• pagi td ak pegi kelas marketing..then study chapter 8 psl retailing..tetibe miss bukak cite psl 'fall in love with lecturer'. ha cerita mengisahkan kwn miss sendiri yg sgt meminati lecturer financial accounting dorg yg sgt la hot..
• kwn miss ni actually sgt xsuke account in part 1 n 2.. but bile dorg masuk sem 3 dpt plak lecturer sem 3..ha!amik ko..terus menerus xpenah escape kelas acc. . setiap kali lecturer tu mengajar die ternganga..habis sume keje account org laen die watkan.
• pernah sekali tu lecturer tu dtg dgn lebam2 di leher or we used to called it love bite..pastu sume org dok mengumpat lecturer tu tp hanye peminat setia die je yg setia mendengar kuliah die..tp agaknye lecturer ni perasan so die hnye melakukan kuliah selama 30 minit...malu agaknya kan..
• tp satu kekagumannya,minah ni dpt a's untuk account die.bagus btol..dlm minat2 die bole lg score paper tu...tp bagus gak..sbb dlm die meminati lecturer tu akhirnye die score paper tu..congratulation..

so the moral of the story ..: perlu ke kite attend kelas lecturer yg kite suke?kerana mungkin akn jd mcm kakak td..walaweyh..haha miss ak plak kate moralnye : kptm ni kene letak lecturer yg hensem dan cantik untuk menarik perhatian pelajar..contoh terbaik ni ha,kwn die,...hahaha
so perlu ke kite wat sume ni?saya rase mcm perlu dan tidak perlu..sebabnye ade advantages n disadvantages nye..ape pun kalian kan sudah maklum saya dah ade hanis di hati..walaupun di hati die ade lah gule hati saya..my bad boy la,...haha..btw today i cant meet him..but maybe this evening..

different but same..

• umur kite jauh berbeza tp perangai kite sama..
• ak perempuan ko lelaki..tp kite happy go lucky..

the fact is we're same but different..but u must know don't too arrogant n think like u the hot one..becoz in our life never will remain..just listen n read..no need to comment because i dont need a comment from the one who think he is hot..thank you

berusaha

semalam aku bercerita tentang salted kepada roomate ak...
lantas die berkata..wawa kenapa u xpenah nk usaha..
konfius..berusaha yang mcm mane?
adakah ak perlu berusaha sampai ke tahap cipan.
eh apw la yg ak merepek ni..
tp perlu ke ak berusaha..argghhh..ta paham ta paham..
selama ni ak xberusaha ke?

xpe saya akan berusaha berusaha berusaha berusaha dan berusaha...

picture of the day

gentle girl

• hey!today is monday..a new day..a new bright to me..today there is one guy tht i always keep on eye ...hehehe..gatal nye..
• tp hari ini lain..die yg keep on eye kt ak plus quyah..inside the deep heart we r wonder why he staring at us like tht..musykil...dh la gojes taw mamat ni...haha perangai pun comel n nakal2 gitu..
• n after we had discussion ...they keep asking me..why dont i try to ask no hp tht guy..aha besol..so brave of kan?haha...
• btw i hope n really hope i can keep staring at him so do him...

songs of the week

hey ..i'm fell in love with paramore song ....brick by boring brick!hey yeah!

She lives in a fairy tale
Somewhere too far for us to find
Forgotten the taste and smell
Of the world that she's left behind
It's all about the exposure the lens I told her
The angles were all wrong now
She's ripping wings off of butterflies
keep your feet on the ground
when your head's in the clouds
Well go get your shovel
And we'll dig a deep hole
To bury the castle, bury the castle
Well go get your shovel
And we'll dig a deep hole
To bury the castle; bury the castle
Ba da ba ba da ba ba da
So one day he found her crying
Coiled up on the dirty ground
Her prince finally came to save her
And the rest you can figure out
But it was a trick
And the clock struck 12
Well make sure to build your house brick by boring brick
or the wolves gonna blow it down
keep your feet on the ground
when your head's in the clouds
Well go get your shovel
And we'll dig a deep hole
To bury the castle, bury the castle
Well you built up a world of magic
Because your real life is tragic
Yeah you built up a world of magic
If it's not real
You can't hold it in your hand
You can't feel it with your heart
And I won't believe it
But if it's true
You can see it with your eyes
Or even in the dark
And that's where I want to be, yeah
Go get your shovel
We'll dig a deep hole
To bury the castle, bury the castle

ke hadapan

bangun lantas aku berfikir ke mana hala tuju ak selepas ini...tetibe teringat kata2 seorg pensyarah...ak kne memikirkan masa hadapan kerana itu adalah hala tuju ak..pandang ke hadapan lantas jgn toleh ke belakang...

sepet

• today i woke up at 10 o clock..haha..APe punye anak dara..then mandi n laundry time..after a few minutes tibe2 sri ayu black out..oh damn,,panas giler...boring
• then about 12 o clock ingt nk wat mkt...but suddenly terasa mengantuk...haha 1.30 i fell asleep..gile btol ini perempuan..hdup dikelilingi tidur je..then 4.30 bangun then pegi cari dinner ngn sharifah n aika..along the journey they always talk about contest yg around the corner...huh mmg xtakot..asl la ak pegimasuk..ape la nk merepek ni nnt
• heh eventhough da wat discussion ngn sir izzat...i still get nervous lol...btw thanks sir..haha kelaka pun ade gak time discuss ni..dgn interruption yg pelbagai kerenah nye..haha.'eh ape la ko merepek ni syaitan'..quotes ni diambil dari salah seorang lecturer..kwn sir kot..katenye the best speaker..heh i hav no comment regarding this...tp sir kelakar gak kot...ade ke die nk lepak bilik sir sbb bilik die busuk...ha!busk punye reason ade la..hadui mcm2 kan..kdg2 lecturer pun mcm student..student pun ape lg mcm bdk2 la jd nye..
• anyway hey u olls wish me luck on wednesday..nervous lol .....

p/s : if my dear can attend to this contest to see me ...ouh almost paradise la..

pakcik

• congtars u dah jd pakcik.
• heh sangat comel kn itu budak..
• bile sy nk jd macik kpd budak tu ?'amaran mood menggatal sudah dtg'..
• comel la..comel sgt..tp auntie xdpt nk blk tgk kamu yg comel itu..busy la...tape nnt sy pulang g tgk ank buah awk ea..hehe abg u ckp u jealous dpt ank buah rambut cam beckham kn?
• hakhakhakhak lawak lawak..
• btw congratulation coz awk tu dh jd pkck..
• when i see the baby i smilling..y?because some reason tht i undefined..
• p/s : i miss u
  

langkah

di saat aku sudah hampir melupakan kau..tibe2 ko dtg membawa seribu kenakalan yang menceriakan hari ini..terima kasih kerana hilang dari pandangan selama 3 hari lalu muncul membawa kebahagiaan..terima kasih sgt..
i do love u forever..


p/s :semasa hebat berconversation dgn awk tibe sir intterupted..haha sori...

i miss hao pengyou

hey u olls..today i will talk about my hao pengyou.. ape tu hao pengyou? iye adalah betfriends saya...hee! i miss u olls lots my hao pengyou..sgt2..sgt lame xlepak ngn korg..busy busy busy mengakreditasi diri sehingga kite berjauhan kan2..asib baik in modern world n kite sume ade hp bole callinh sms-ing n 3g-ing... but today i really miss guys..hee... i feel like want hug2 all of u ...nobody can defined how i miss u olls.. when u willing to share everytink when u camo n wipe my tears...oh shit i miss memorable moment when u besides me.. my hao pengyou take care..i always love hug kisses miss u olls..

never looked back

just walk..
never looked back..
just forget the past
i'm happy being myself..
i'm happy with who am i beside a person who love me by who me is...
thanks for the concern tht i really do not need..
thanks you..
my advice..just live your life without me..because i'm happy when u not with me...

wtf

hari ini bangun awal..memanfaatkan masa maen fb..
di saat mood yg agk baik..tp telah di spoilkan dgn 1 post..wtf la wei...perlu ke ko nk send regards bagai bile ko dh wat someone tu terluke.,dah la mcm xde persaan..benci ko!
bile jumpe parents kiteorg bkn maen baik lg ko...pijak semut pun xmati...tp sesuke hati je ko wat kan?gelabah la weii..nk wat baik ngn ak..ingt ak taktaw ape ko wat kt kakak ak...dont make me lose my respect to u bro..eventhough it happen now..wtf!ye ak mmg bengang ngn ko..ko la org nye...ANDai kate la kn ko bce blog ak yg xseberapa ni ,hah!silakanlah...aku xkisah...

do u have to?

• do you have to show off?
• does it need to tell them tht u r gedik?
• do you have to keep busy body bout me..?
• do you have to be stalker.?
• do you hav to act like u r super macho?
• DO U HAV TO Love me?
• do you?
• do you?
• do you have to be like u r the best forever?
• do you have too excited?
• do you have it all?

horror

horror...tht's what i feeling now...i wish i could slap someone tht willing...

mengelamun mengelamun dan termenung..ape yg jd kt ak..for the second day i cannot perform kt class...argghhhhh ....

ye smlm saya melihat fb hanis..i'm too jealous when seeing ppl nk menggatal ngn die..hell r!don't disturb him..he is mine...arghhh maybe this kind of thing buat saya bad mood..oh dear!jgn kacau sy punye...pliss...cari yg laen ye....

arghhh stop talking bout it..

tuesday

• marketing as usual with miss izwa...
• meeting en.farid n hep..
• meet miss su..confirmkn psl sukan
  
• so i think i would be late go to bel clas.. sori sir izzat..pls dont ask me to sing...pls!haha
• back to hostel..prefer to could have sleep...
• ctu class with ustaz elmi...

hope everytink goes fine...tomorrow here i come...

p/s : sleeping time ..i miss my salted fish...but now i have hanis...oh damn..someone jealous nnt..sudah..sudah..sudah....big hug n kisses to hanis :) chill!

today

• di pagi yang indah aku bangun lantas membaling bantal kepada aika...dgn erti kate lain wei bangun la..ye pagi ini kami kene bangun sendiri sebab asma tade..uww rindu asma.
• then pegi kelas..as usual kelas micro di e2..aha rambling sikit sambil memeningkn pale otak bersama buku2 micro..then finish!
• then saya pegi bilik lecturer..meeting eh dating eh eh eh..ape ni!haha anta proposal sudah..ye pergi bilik miss izwa check up proposal then g bilik che wan!haha he just came back from indonesia..n the best damn thing die beli souvenir tok ajk sri ayu..mcm yg die jnji kn la..hehe ..after tht we going to HEP amik qoutation..di sini terdpt kekeliruan yg memeningkan kami ajk sri ayu..heh tp berjaya di atasi dgn baik...thanks HEP..
  
• then i had meeting with ketua jbtn pengajian umum...bersembang2 dan bersembang xsedar dah kol 1..rushing utk kelas akaun plak...
• AKAUN ...huh what a horror..ak xperform kt kelas..penat mengantuk batuk membuatkan ak g tido n bersembang ngn quyah ....haha..then berlalu je 2 jam camtu je...
• then it's about 3.30 ,...waiting kak dayah abis kelas...sampai kol 5.30 sbb nk kne g tempah hadiah kt kajang..then around the time tu ak wat homework..done everytink except accout n hpd..hehe...
• 5.30...pegi bilik lecturer..lepak kt bilik miss izwa sambil settlekan proposal..haha..kelaka time ni...tp kne dirahsiakan sbb nye.bak kate org xbaik mengaibka org..heee..
• then tunggu kak dayah abis solat n miss punch card then we going to kajang..as usual super duper jammed...merayau n meraban at last ta jumpe pun yg menarikk.pulang ke sri ayu dgn tgn kosong..:)
• then beli dinner ...8.30 meeting lg,,kt uma miss izwa..we talk about trip n festival sukan..plus majlis ceramah dan solat hajat..xlupe psl dinner...
• now saya di atas katil menaip blog sambil bergelak ketawa bersama aika..finally aika dah tido bermimpikan kerang mungkin..last ly night everyone..

i enjoyed my day

p/s: walaupun penat tp saya byk belajar hari ini..thanks for who involved to teach me!big hug ;)

hate

i hate u...

because u make me miss u badly..

hope tomorrow goin to be peaceful day with plenty work..

might be late for classes..

sorry to all lecturers...

eh tetibe plak?

heh...!